what if?
Posted 09-03-2008 at 11:14 PM by littleq624
I feel like i have become trapped in a bottle that is my own head. Depression that has run deep in my veins and kept in check by the poetry i write has started to boil over because i have not been able to string together a poem in over a month. and on top of all that so many questions of my history have started surfacing like what if any number of things had bee differen how would my life have ended. what if i had abused drugs until i did massive organ damage. what if i never went snowboarding on January 5th, 2001. any of these could have had hugely different effects on my life. WHAT IF?
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You seem to be very confused. I might know what you need
Posted 09-04-2008 at 02:52 AM by FZ6Rider
- "what if?" sounds a lot like you have stopped looking forward to the times ahead because you have decided your life is either too perfect already or is so boring as to be virtually non-existent. hell, you even said "how would my life have ended."
I recommend a) professional help (I mean that) b) stop being stuck on yourself for awhile and look around--be a part of life, not a victim of it. and c) talk to your mom/dad/friends about normal stuff that people talk about, NOT your problems...because untrained emotional "help" will only depress you more. And most of all, if you are in trouble and I mean real trouble, please call the hotline...Posted 09-04-2008 at 07:34 PM by Clay - Clay's right. You need a new perspective on life. It sounds like you've entered a death spiral and all you can see is the impending crash. As riders, we know all too well what happens when we target fixate.
You need to get out and experience life. Donate some time at a soup kitchen or volunteer at a local nursing home or something. Do anything to change your perspective. Life is what you make of it... now go make something out of the one you've been given!Posted 09-05-2008 at 07:23 AM by Gamuru
